summer really isnt good for the mind

you know why it isnt? those of us who dont have anything to do think too much. because of the fact that when im not with friends i feel like im the only person on the planet. that or the only person thats alone on the planet...either or. it just sucks. i would love more than anything to at least find someone...but no. i just pissed off someone out there and they mustve put a hex on me at some point. if they did they succeeded. i dont know how to explain it really. its just frustrating as hell because as much as i look for someone to love again i just cant really. im hung up on someone else and i cant/dont really want to break away from that. ugh...i just dont know