Wasting another Sunday

Urg! every sunday is a wasted sunday here. it really sucks. i CAN get out, i just have no where to get out to...and it requires a great deal of haggling and calling people...which sometimes i really dont feel like doing. one thing these kinds of days are good for is thinking. not really about any one thing but just lots of things. the reason is theres not much to occupy your mind so its all you can do to keep sane i suppose. personally theres too many things that id rather choose not to think about but i cant help it. love, life, the general things. love more so...life has always been there so its not that hard to deal with. but, love and life are intertwined so...eh, who knows. i dont know who that last guy who commented was but he told me "not to try so hard"...when in all reality i dont try that hard. i tend to sit back and very subtly interact with the person who i like. im not a bold person by any means...as my friends know. but when i start to get desperate i do tend to get a little impatient and just let emotions flow. sort of a flaw id say. but whatever, its me, if whoever cant handle it i dont want to be around them anyway. on another note ive decided to overhaul my standards a bit..Version 1.2 if you will...height: not so much of a problem anymore, why? because apparently the short girls are the most sought after so the taller ones are the only ones left. its called adaptation...even though i dont stand very tall i must adapt to different options, simple human nature. then theres the social labeling thing: ive been seeking something that just comes after youve made it come out of someone...you know, that "special something"...in my opinion that isnt just found in nature, you have to bring it out of people. so there you have it...V 1.2...its odd though, the height thing, ive found myself attracted to a very tall girl...very odd thing....she must have a foot on me i swear lol...then theres a few others...in the 5'4"-5'5" range...which really isnt that bad...so anyway...just needed to rant a while...

--Sincerely,
Doctor Gonzo