Doctor Gonzo for President

in response to memyself: im just generalizing...i have no clue if youre a male or female. you make a good point nonetheless...i guess you just have to pick my brain to really understand why im so obsessed with finding someone...and to save you the trouble ill just go ahead and do it here...okay, i am a person who loves to love...be it as of a friend or "sibling" in one case...but there are reserves of excess love that you can only share with someone else on a romantic level. its kinda like a savings account...the more you invest, the more interest backs up and etc...but in that sense money is a bad thing...because, yeah, too much bottled up emotion is never good for a person. especially me...seeing as my mind works differently than a lot of people i know. ...so yeah, this the only way i can communicate with you (memyself) until you get a blog online...
Anyway--
step one of my grand plan was halfway completed thursday...im trying to get kristin to be receptive to me, so as of this coming week ill be talking to her every chance i get...then step two: ask her to hang out on the weekend furthering the feelings between us...or so i can hope yeah? step three: shortly thereafter step two, ask her to prom...what better way to show someone that you like them without actually just jumping out there...itll be a case study in human nature and limited psychology...on another note
-feel free to take an intermission at this point-
i dont think i ever completely explained myself on the messy business of december. or maybe i did and this is just some crazy thought had the other day...moving on.... okay, i really didnt stop loving until about...maybe 4 or so days afterward..and that was because of some very hateful comments on the opposite party's part. i realize that i hurt her, but i suppose it was a misguided attempt at altruism (sacrificing yourself to better the other person)...would it have been better if i had just told her that we should see other people until some day in the future? perhaps. odds are it would have lessened the blow a bit. i truly dont know. but i say this with all confidence, if she were 6 hours north for good, we both wouldnt be miserable right now. and thats the truth. as obvious as that is, it hasnt been said before. at least i dont think...well thats enough of that...i wonder if anyone from my past reads this? not just the main person but theres like 3 others...i think...hmm...well feel free to comment if you do.

Sincerely,
Doctor Gonzo